flummoxed i stood...

flummoxed I stood gazing at the flowing water..
I saw reflections in it...
heard voices.. of pain and of guffaw...
but, still nature played its game...
and everything seemed as a bane
even the water refused to accompany me and continued it's journey..

but, for me this place was special
somewhere where i could meet myself,
discover my inner self...

stupefied I stood ruminating the starry sky
trying to find answers of the questions that have long lost their existence...
the silence of the night spoke a lot..
it brought memories of all those years.. the years that have nourished me
and made me what I am today...
all the caresses i have got
the mistakes that I made...
the moments of happiness and sorrows rushed into my veins..

there's smethg in this place that lures me

my dreamy encounter......

"It is all just a dream...!"

this was what came to my mind at its first sight...

a person who was slender and lean,

emerging from the woods during the bright sudden lightning during the night...

Exactly, as I had dreamt of!!!

with eyes wide open I stood there flabbergasted,

then, he moved slowly towards me... and he suddenly 'coughed'

just to bring me back from my own world...

Do I know him...?

Have I met him before??

I was really dubious and baffled,

totally aghast at his presence....

"can I just touch u please....?"

"are you real...?"

I, the dumbfounded fellow thought of saying all this then...

and He, unknown & clueless of my bizarre reaction...

gave a sweeeeet smile (trust me it is hard to forget and probably the best smile i had ever witnessed till date)

which will surely take me a millennium to forget...

It was then for the first time

I knew wat the term "a-million-dollar-smile" actually meant...

thanks to the buddy whoever invented this phrase...

was this my first encounter with my "Anonymous"?

Have I FOUND him at last....?????

kaun hun main...

kaun hun main...
khoj rahin hun apne astitwa ko aaj,
iss shareer ka bhaar dho rahi ek aatma,
jise kis aur jaana hai wo raah na hai pata...
par fir bhi chali hun iss raah main..
apni raah banati, milti anek raahgiro se,
rishta kya hai? kyu hai? unse pata nahi...
kyu barbas he uth rahen hain vichaar aise,
jinhe shabd main de sakti nahi,
iss dil main tees hai abhi bhi,
zakhm hai kuch puraane kuch naye se...
aaj uss ugte hue suraj ki lalima ko dekh ek anjaani si khushi si hui,
jaise jaga di ho ussne umeeden nayi...
kal kaali ghaneri raat main,
jab tanhai main baithi main khoj rahi thi jawaab kai...
chup rahe taare, chup raha chaand... chup raha quayanaat ye saara...
ab aayi hai roshni...
jagaane nayi oorja shyad mil jaye mere aks ko pehchaan apni...