The Last Breath..

And.. she thought about the evening
about the next moments and what they would behold
there was only silence.. solitude and darkness that accompanied her
she had been dying all along.. hiding her pain behind her smile
the mask was now fading away..
her bubble of a dreamland was about to burst
what can she do?
there was nothing that could bring her back..
the happiness.. she longed for was long gone..
the big big world.. was not what she expected
her undying faith in optimism was shredding away
she now knew she cant dodge the reality anymore
yet she hated the leave the child in her..
there is nothing that can refurbish her dream.. her wrecked heart
she could no longer tether her soul and awaited her last breath
as now no freshness awaited her..

and so.. came the moment when her wait ended that evening
subsiding her succorance
freeing her soul from her own shackles
and she flew far away.. leaving her body 

Pain..

I continued waiting for you
and the rains kept lacerating my soul
with the hope of your return

Love..
A self mutilation..
which slowly cuts through your skin
hurting deep within
till blood starts oozing out..
filling the space more and more with its stench and smell..
until the moment arrives after which there is no pain
no realization of any sting
Only numbness that exists
like your love..
like our love..

Hopes..

There was hope in her eyes

Hope to see him again

Hope to feel him again

Hope to get drowned in his fragrance once again

Hope to see him smile the same way when they first kissed

Hope to find the lost love again..

And, all that she sought was.. a tender touch on her cheeks

to rekindle the hallucinatory hopes of the shattered heart.

And so I was.. standing on my toes

making it facile for you to sweep me off my feet

but instead, you decided to trip me over

nadaaniyan..

pyaar ki barikiyon ko samjhne ka fan ham main nahi,
rishton ki gehrayion ko jatani ki samjh ham main nahi,
hamari khamoshiyon ko wo samjh na paye,
isme unki koi khata bhi nahi..

naadan the ham jo kar baithe gunah aisa,
ki galatfehmi main he kar baithe judai ka faisla,
jab faasle ho gaye darmayan,
tab fir yaad aayin unki galiyan

yaad aaye hamein wo rangeen nazaren,
jo hamare saath ne the savare,
par beete hue pal fir aate nahi,
jaise tehniyon se bichade hue patte fir kabhi laut-te nahi..

lamhe

kuch lamhon ke rangeen nazaron main,
yun aashiyan khayalon ka buna hai,
har khwaab main maine apne he 'aks' ka deedar kiya hai,
ummedon k ek jahaan main,
 choti-si aasha ki laher hai,
milti har kiran se,
 takrati har bhawar se,
kehti khud se sada ye mushkura ke,
door bhale he ho manzil hamari
par athkheliyan ye hai jivan ki saari..

aks ki talaash...

Roshni main dhoonda,

to wo andheron main mila,

begano main talaasha to wo

apno main mila...

janna chaha jab maine ,

ki kyu chupta hai wo roshni-se, begano-se..

mera he "aks" hai wo,

ye mjhe batlata hai,

aur kehta hai...

" roshni main tum he mjhe jhuthlaati ho,

begano main hun par tum mjhse katraati ho,

andhere main hoti ho tab he,

tum apne "aks" ko pehchaan paati ho...

han! tanhayi main he mjhe aur apne aap ko khoj paati ho...!"

flummoxed i stood...

flummoxed I stood gazing at the flowing water..
I saw reflections in it...
heard voices.. of pain and of guffaw...
but, still nature played its game...
and everything seemed as a bane
even the water refused to accompany me and continued it's journey..

but, for me this place was special
somewhere where i could meet myself,
discover my inner self...

stupefied I stood ruminating the starry sky
trying to find answers of the questions that have long lost their existence...
the silence of the night spoke a lot..
it brought memories of all those years.. the years that have nourished me
and made me what I am today...
all the caresses i have got
the mistakes that I made...
the moments of happiness and sorrows rushed into my veins..

there's smethg in this place that lures me